2 posts tagged “emo”
People are already asking me why I haven't 'Christmas-ized' all my web stuff yet or why I haven't drawn Christmasy stuff yet. The answer to all this is; I just haven't gotten into the Christmas mood yet. Christmas is suppose to be happy. Lately I've felt sad, angry, pissed, drooping, or like death which is not Christmasy. Christmas is suppose to have happy or Christmas music. I have been listening to rap, emo, metal, sad, rock, or other non-happy/Christmacy music. Christmas involves blue, white, green, and red. Lately I have been feeling weird around colors including these, so I hate all colors right now but black and white don't go well either, go figure :/ . And right now all the stupid Christmas crap going on right now isn't helping, maybe when Christmas break starts I'll feel more Christmasy. School has been overwhelming me to an extreme level. Oh, and Christmas, has been used waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay to much in this whole paragraph.
Song Listened to While Writing:
Title: The Nobodies
Artist: Marilyn Manson <----- See what I mean :/
Ok, so we were doing poems in English and I learned.... I LOVE POEMS!!! I have taken a deep love to poems, especially since I noticed after reading some or writing some I usually feel better. So we had to write a poem as an assigntment and I made another poem for extra credit. Now both me and my mom liked the poem Saddness better than Anger but my teacher said she liked Anger better. So I'm putting both of these up to see which rates more.
"Saddness"
Saddness
A feeling
Most cannot describe
A black feeling
in the pit or your stomach
and sometimes your heart
it fills the heart dragging it down
deeper and deeper and deeper and deeper
it hurts, you can feel it
you start to feel like death
it's a dark feeling
it cries to you
it mourns for you
even if no one else does
Some say it's nothing
but it is something
it is
Saddness
it can be caused
it can be forced
it can just happen at any given time
for some they find a solution
to get rid of the black abyss
for others it stays
it torments you
fills you with dread
your heart, your soul
sometimes it laughs at you
your human mortality
fills you with fear
it loves it, it lives off of it
this monster
this thing called
Saddness
it loves to see you cry
it loves your pain
it has no pity
it hates you
you, and all around you
it loves death
it loves it so much it fill you with it
it wants you dead
so it makes you feel dead
Some thing it's nothing
But it is something
And it's very important
it is
Saddness
"Anger"
It boils
the emotion of anger makes you want to scream
like a volcano you want to blow
but you don't
you keep it in
you let it fester, you let it boil
a stab in the heart
you're mad at anyone
and everyone
it's so intense
a fire burning in your heart
burning in your soul
a crazything that makes you busy
makes you rush
you tell no one
'til it's too late
you scream
you yell
you hurt
it could be physical
it could be emotional
but they all hurt the same
a stab in the heart, it hurts
it's like a long needle that's buring yet freezing at the same time is in your heart
poisoning you
blurring your vision
blurring you senses
until you gol blind with rage
Similar to Saddness you go crazy
Intense
Panic
Pain
you want pain
to someone or yourself
somewhere, somehow
danger to all around you
even yourself
it's crazy
you're crazy
now or never
'til it's too late
it makes you boil
like a volcano
Hatred
it's your death
So which one is better or should I just give up all hope of poetry at all?
